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Giovanna’s reunion with Roberto in Piazza Amedeo

The Lying Life of Adults

Giovanna’s reunion with Roberto in Piazza Amedeo turns a meeting she has privately magnified into an awkward, consequential encounter. Arranged by Giuliana, it places Giovanna’s infatuation beside the realities of Roberto’s manner, Giuliana’s engagement, and the returned bracelet now worn by the goddaughter. As Giovanna struggles with shame about her appearance and fear of seeming unintelligent, the conversation gives her a chance to speak on her own terms—and leaves Roberto, rather than her imagined version of him, at the center of her attention.

The meeting takes shape

Giuliana calls to arrange a Sunday meeting in Piazza Amedeo and tells Giovanna that Roberto, her fiancé, will be there. Giovanna experiences the prospect as the arrival of a moment she has longed for and intensely imagined, but anticipation brings fear rather than ease. She stammers and tries to put the meeting off by mentioning homework; Giuliana laughs and asks her to calm down, explaining that she wants Roberto to see that she has friends who study and speak well.

Giovanna then raises Angela, partly because she hopes the complication might make Giuliana postpone the date. She imagines Angela’s effect on the couple and says that she has already told her friend about the plans. Giuliana admits that Angela can want to be at the center of things and briefly asks whether Giovanna could keep the meeting from her. Giovanna refuses: if Angela learned that she had met Giuliana’s fiancé without her, she might stop speaking to her. Giuliana relents and agrees that Angela can come too. The plan therefore gathers all three young women around Roberto, while revealing Giovanna’s effort to manage both her own longing and her friendship with Angela.

Anticipation and self-consciousness

Before the meeting, Giovanna fears that Roberto will find her ignorant or unintelligent. The anxiety is so intense that she considers asking her father questions about life, death, God, Christianity, and Communism, hoping to borrow his well-informed answers for a possible conversation. She rejects the idea because she does not want to associate Giuliana’s fiancé with what she regards as her father’s narrow-mindedness. Her preparation instead turns toward appearance: she searches for a way to make herself acceptable.

For a long period Giovanna has concluded that she is ugly and that trying to beautify herself would only make her ridiculous. She has responded by concentrating on cleanliness, concealing herself in black, or deliberately choosing heavy makeup and bright colors. For this occasion she tries to find a middle ground, eventually settling not on confidence but on the practical hope that her colors will not clash. She leaves after telling her mother she is going out with Angela and descends by funicular toward Piazza Amedeo, imagining that tension might make her ill or cause her to lose control. The journey makes the meeting feel less like a casual appointment than a test she is afraid she cannot pass.

At the piazza, Giovanna sees Angela already seated outside a café. When Angela points out Giuliana and Roberto behind them, Giovanna makes herself stay seated rather than turn around or immediately join the couple. Giuliana greets her by resting a hand lightly on her shoulder. Giovanna notices the bracelet partly hidden by Giuliana’s jacket sleeve and recognizes it as the one she had returned to Vittoria. The sight interrupts her greeting: the bracelet’s return to the scene makes Vittoria’s presence felt even though she is not there, and Giovanna wonders at its brightness on Giuliana’s wrist.

Roberto, Giuliana, and the friends

The second encounter makes Giovanna realize how little she remembers of meeting Roberto before. He appears very tall when standing, but folds himself into his chair in a way that makes him seem compact. His striking appearance draws her attention, yet it is his changed manner that most unsettles her: unlike the impressive speaker she remembers from church, he says little and communicates through brief remarks and gestures. His observant, slightly ironic eyes remain familiar. To Giovanna he resembles a genial teacher who asks clear questions, listens without interrupting, and responds kindly.

Giuliana, by contrast, talks nervously and praises her friends as she introduces them. She seems luminous to Giovanna, who wonders whether the bracelet is the source of that brightness, while finding Giuliana’s words opaque. Giovanna suspects that Giuliana wants Roberto to see them as respectable friends from good families: girls from the Vomero, high-school students, decent people. She reads the presentation as part of Giuliana’s effort to distance herself from Pascone and prepare for a respectable life with Roberto in Milan. Feeling displayed for approval, Giovanna becomes deliberately unresponsive, sitting silently and looking ostentatiously at her watch.

Angela does not behave as Giovanna had imagined when she first considered bringing her. Although pretty and self-assured, she is neither dressed provocatively nor intent on disrupting the couple. Roberto turns to her with polite, professorial questions about school, its facilities and teachers, and what she does in her free time. Angela answers easily, making jokes about classmates and teachers. Giuliana moves her chair closer to Roberto, sometimes rests her head on his shoulder, and laughs with him; as Angela carries the conversation, Giuliana seems more at ease.

When Roberto asks about reading, Angela says that school leaves her little time for it and points out that Giovanna reads. Giuliana calls her Giannina, the familiar name used by Vittoria and the paternal relatives, but Giovanna corrects her: her name is Giovanna. Roberto says he remembers her well. Giovanna suggests that it is because she resembles Vittoria, but Roberto denies that this is the reason and cannot yet explain what made her memorable. His recognition matters to Giovanna even as she says there is no need to explain it: she does not want to be remembered as slovenly, ugly, grim, and silent.

Giovanna claims the conversation

Roberto asks how Giovanna finds time to read, and she answers that her teachers assign so much homework that they could not complete it themselves if students gave it back to them. She says she reads when she wants to, sometimes day and night if a book grips her, and that school does not determine what she reads. When Roberto asks for titles, she claims to have read the Gospels recently, although that reading was several months in the past. She had once written down her impressions in a notebook in anticipation of just such a conversation; when the opportunity arrives, she begins speaking without hesitation.

The talk that Giovanna has rehearsed in her imagination becomes a fierce concentration on Roberto. She describes the books while maintaining a show of calm, though inwardly she is angry and physically strained enough to have a headache and work to control her breathing. The setting and the others recede from her attention; for this stretch of the meeting, Roberto alone holds it. Her performance is not the smooth display she had feared she could not manage. It is an eruption of prepared thought, self-consciousness, and anger that enables her to speak at length while trying not to look away.

The silence after she stops reveals how differently the others have received her. Angela looks at Giovanna with pride, and Giovanna draws strength from her friend’s silent approval. Giuliana clings to Roberto and watches Giovanna with bewilderment, as though her intensity is improper. Roberto, however, asks whether she thinks the Gospels tell a terrible story. The question extends the conversation and leaves the encounter open: Giovanna has not resolved her infatuation, but she has made herself heard and discovered that Roberto responds with attention rather than the grand eloquence she expected.